ok, i can buy that.... for a dollar...

ok, so i am looking around at my wonderful spouces blog at http://www.mycase.blogspot.com/

and see this silly thing she has... a little test.... http://www.liquidgeneration.com/quiz/johnhughes_quiz.asp

so i click on the link, and it tells me....

http://www.liquidgeneration.com/quiz/images/clark.jpgTo link it (the actual code):



man, what a week, to florida and back, 3006 miles in 5 days, i took a 16 foot wide by about 50 foot long swimming pool to zephyrhills florida, and came back empty... too damn tired to tell all about the trip, but it was not a bad one, little fun, little stormas (hurricane Katrina) but all-in-all it was a good trip....

see you guys next time...

Happy Birthday Mom.....

57 years ago today there was a little girl born, and it was my mom, she grew up with a loving family, and a really nice personality, then had a couple great kids, my brother James, and myself, we lost mom to cancer in feb of 2003, and today would have been her 57th b-day, so i am saying happy b-day mom, we miss you very, very much, james went to see mom today, and sent pictures of her grave, i had to work, but i will be going to see mom sunday....

and then off to florida monday, see you guys next friday or saturday....

welp, its over...

welp, i told you guys, my truck dream has now been completly crushed, no chance, no way.. no how... its gone, took a dump.. how ever you want to term it, its shot down in flames.

we tried to run some credit just to find out that the score really dont mean shit... its the history that REALLY matters.

oh well, the way my life has gone, thanks chrissy for trying to help me out, we just arent able to run with it, so maybe i will be hauling swimming pools wednesday, or be on my way to arkansas to run over the road, tomorrow by about noon will tell....

well, kids, i came up with another scheme, if i could produce bio-diesel at 70 cents per gallon, and sell it for like $1.15 a gallon, i could get a diesel vehicle and sell it delivered within like 50 miles real cheap.. and make some profit!

i am trying to engineer a way to make like 200 gallons or more a day, i know thats a tall order, but if i can get a job where i have a little free time it would be good cause i could make the containers out of steel, or maybe i should look into getting a few of the plastic tanks that are so prevelent around here, i know, its a stupid idea, i know... but hey, thats what keeps me dreaming and semi-sane, hey, everything else has been shot down on a regular basis, and this idea was shot to hell really quick...

maybe i should just let myself go off the deep end, and just run with it.... i dont think anyone would be surprised at this point.... i had a decent day today, but after my nap i woke up feeling really sad, much sadder than i am allowed to let on, but its ok.. i can bottle these emotions just like i have been, and its back to good old happy ken, but how long can a person bottle emotions before they go insane, does the bottle ever get full???

i guess we shall find out, i guess only time will tell in the long run.... least i have this blog where i can vent, oh, i guess i should not write shit like that in here eather, it will be thrown back in my face, as it has alreayd been..... so.. its all good, no problems here, just making up shit to write... I'M HAPPIER THAN A PIG IN SLOP, NO PROBLEMS AT ALL, i am not allowed to have any sad,bad,grouchy, or anything but happy feelings... when do i get to be me again....?

i guess someone will let me know... untill then its just business as usual.... happy ken, here to take care of anyones problems, whether its "ken i got screwed on a gps, do you have one?" to something as simple as doing fish stuff, to "ken, think you can help me find the guy that ran my brand new bike over?" here i am, just tell me what needs to be done....i am here for you all!!!!!

feeling more sad now than... oh well, enough .. i guess, i dont want to make anyone mad at me.....

good night all..... have a great one...

i'm kinda excited tonight.....

welp, i have had a much better day today than i have been having, just an example is that i went to hastings with chrissy and she got us a couple dvd's, hahaha, how cool are we, i got the muppet show and have been watching the muppets for the last few hours... and i am really excited about tomorrow, its official, i am going to try to get into the little 9 grand truck tomorrow, chriss and i were looking at some trucks today and came across an owner operator that has been driving on his own truck for over 20 years, and he explaned just exactly what it cost, but he also told how much money you can make, and i think it kinda put a light on the potential, just hauling gas he is making a very nice profit, plenty to pay his bills and pay his truck, i wont go into numbers cause someone might can hold it against me in some way, but lets just say it would be enough to get by on...but i had a great dream during my nap a bit ago about my having my truck and fixing it up real nice... it was a really cool dream, it usually means its not going to happen when i can remember my dreams, so dont be surprised tomorrow night when i get in here and let you all know i dint have the money for a down payment or something like that, but my dream is still alive tonight...

i got to see my big bro tonight and watched "rush hour" at his house for a little bit, and chrissy got to see maria's new car and new gun, and everyone seemed to be in a good mood, so it made me feel a bit better...i still cant talk big brother into wearing a turkey feather hat, like the one off the movie "a man called horse". and i have started to look for a vulture hat, like the medicine man off the same movie, but since james is the big chief we want him to get a turkey feather hat!.... hahahha, maria and i get a really big laugh at the thought of big bro in a turkey hat!!!!!

welp, i guess today is the last day of val's summer vacation, man, she is growing up really fast, i am so proud of her, she is getting to be a very interesting young lady, she is really smart, and i bet she is super cool at school, i remember being around girls like her in school, i was always a rebel so those girls alwys had much interest in me, so i am trying to keep the rebels out of the interest of val....i dont want her to have anything to do with a boy like i was, and thats for sure!!!

man, i cant believe this is her second year at junior high school, 4 more years left after this one... it just seems like it has not beel long enough....hahahahah, i am really proud of her, what a great kiddo!!!!


hey, all you readers dont forget, you can leave comments too, and i encourage you that read my rantings to please leave a comment, and let me know who all is around...

have a great night all!!!

why?

i am so sick of living like this, every time i try to get in a little happier mood, it just does not work, there is always someone there to make SURE i dont have that ability, something as simple as stapling up a small banner from my early childhood outside my radio room, and all that can be said is a gripe about the fact i used very small staples to tack it to the wall....... i am so sick of this shit, all the fucking time, all i wanted to do was to put up a little banner from my elementary school, it was so fragile, and worn out that it just fell to pieces when i took it down, the house has cracks the size of my ass crack in the walls and spider webs about to take over, and i cant even hang a small banner with 2 staples without griping... GOD DAMN i am so sick of this, i feel like i am in hell with just a little less heat...

my life needs an enema, maybe i can take a big life-shit if i am able to go out on the road.... i will miss my big brother so much though...

i was in such a good mood when my big brother came to see me this morning, he brought me word that i was missed at the gun store, and a 10 round magazine for my beloved 1911-a1 45 pistol......

how in the world am i ever going to be able to pay my big brother back for all he has done for me......oh well, if someone reads this i will probably have to hear about it, or they will act all weird toward me.... oh well... wall of voodoo is on the xm here in my room , the original "mexican radio" .. i love that song almost as much as i like murray head's one night in bangkok... so will let you guys get back to your life!

help, the ham radio bug has bitten... AGAIN!

as if buying guns and motorcycles was not enough, now i have been bitten by the ham radio bug again, my big brother gave me a yaesu ft-301sd 10 watt transceiver, its an oldie but seems to work fairly well, and i have been playing with that the last few days, i got my 80 meter dipole back up and functional, and got my big amplifier hooked back into the electricity again...
man, lets see, motorcycle racing, guns, remote control cars, remote boats, ham radio, guns, truck driving.... darn, where will this end?!?!!?

oh, speaking of truck driving, i found me a really good deal on a decent little rig that i like a lot, of all the trucks i have driven i probably like it about 2nd to the pete 379, but this little rig is only 9 grand, and the peterbuilt was $46,000, i went to my local dealer and drove the little truck around town for a bit, then ran it to midland and back, and really like how it runs, its an older truck, a 1994, but it is really strong.... you can check it out here...
http://www.truckpaper.com/listings/forsale/detail.asp?OHID=968701&dlr=1&guid=325040711FC0494A95F44C392B5FEB45

dont look like i am going to be able to get any help getting it, so it will probably go to some other owner, as with everything in my life for the last 15 years or so, but hey, i can dream about it, and no matter what they cant take that from me, it really makes me sad that i have looked all over and finally found a rig i can get a good start with, for a good price, and it winds up being so far out of reach.....

new cars, new toys, new everything around me and i cant get a piece of equipment i can actually make money with, how bout that for a kick in the ego.. i have even figured a way to pay for the little truck within a year or so, all i need is a little help getting into it, and getting things rolling, no pun intended... ha....ha, oh well, just wait, ,

every person i know is able to get new and workable vehicles, and i cant even get me a cheap old rig that will make some money... oh well, just wait, this kid may have a little surprise for this world soon....i am getting so fucking sick of all this shit, and i think it may be comming to a head soon..... but i will probably wimp out again, and just let things go as usual.....man, i wish i could be like i was when i was 19 yers old, but i guess as i have grown i worry about what everyone else wants me to do, instead of what i want to do.... it just seems like it causes so many problems with everyone around me when i want to do something, and when i get sad it seems to make it worse... everyone else is allowed to have feelings, and be mad, but i am expected to be there all the time, and be happy and cheerful, and solve the problems of the world around me... damn i wish mom was here....no one seems to want me to do over the road again, and wants me to find a job where i can work 8-5 and be off weekend, i would like that myself, but working for someone else i dont think thats going to happen, i really dont want to do otr again myself, because i dont want to be away from my family, my little guy, and my super cool niece val, and big bro, and chupacabra... and i guess i need to quit wanting anything cause every time i get sad chrissy starts in with her chest hurting and acts weird toward me... oh well, i will probably piss everyone off by writing this, but i dont have anyone that dont get mad at me to share my feelings with, hell, i dont have ANY friends anymore, no one accepts anyone i ever am friends with so i just gave up on that.....

ha, i was filling out a job application a few days ago, and it asked for 3 references that was not kin to me or people i work with, and i could not even come up with one... how is that for a dead-end life..... i guess my choice of friends has not been the best, but at least i was happy ever now and then, and i felt like i had a purpose, even if it was just to be taken advantage of by my "FRIENDS"..... oh well, i guess i am better off, but just not happy at all anymore, and i have no one to share my feelings with that wont get mad at me, or start acting weird and stand-off-ish... is that a word... hell, who cares.....

GROW UP KEN....


long as everyone around me is happy why should i have to be......

all i ever want to do is sleep anymore, and thats getting to be a problem too i think, maybe i just need a few days to myself......who am i kidding, i cant afford that....

night all!


anything i can do to make things better for any of you out there in internet land, just let me know.... i am always here for you.... with a smile and a helping hand!